Little Boy Jerry

Let's get this straight, I take all the pictures I put up >
So, I love my dad alot and I live with him full time because it's very stable over here. But he can be so freakin' immature sometimes. He absolutely refuses to do anything that has to do with my mom. I mean, yes, he doesn't have to see her but he won't even go out for my brothers birthday if she is involved. So my dad is missing my brothers birthday, just because he can't ''put up with'' my mom for an hour or two. There's just some things in life, that whether you like it or not, you just have to do. you might not want to, but it's just something you really should do. I don't always want to go to school every day but hey, I'll go and put up with it for the day because it's what I should do. And what makes me even more angry is the fact that he'll badmouth my mom around me. I can't mention one little thing about her without him making some crude joke about her. And no matter how many times I tell him not to do it around me, he still does it. I guess that when it comes to my mother, or any other insecurity of his, he becomes so childish. And I guess he's where I get my stubbornness from. But hey, I'm not childishly stubborn like he is.

Moonlight Sonata

So I wrote this poem by moonlight, while listening to Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven.
It kinda has numerous meanings.
If you really wanna know what any of them are, just send me a message or soemthing :-)
I hope people will actually read this.

As she lays in bed,
Searching for the faces of trees
The scent of summer
The feeling of a new light
She stares.
The door opens.
She doesn't flinch.
She does not breathe.
She does not dream.

Footsteps.
One, Two, One Two.
Movement.
An arm across her
A face beside her
A heart parallel
A voice so familiar
This is no stranger.
His touch
She remembers.

His touch.

She takes in a breath
Sighs.
"Listen" she whispers. "Listen."
To the world echoes silence.

"I hear" he sighs "I know."
It fades.
Fading, fading.
He hears it too
He sees.
Embracing her, holding her
Together breathing
In, out, in out

In.

Out.

"Why?" she asks.
A single tear
Journeys down her face.
Her still frame
He touches
Something so complete
Was torn apart
He had gone away
Words left unspoken
"It doesn't matter anymore. I'm here"

Shivers sent down her spine
Emptiness to completeness
Questions answered
Secrets revealed
A pain which hurts
Yet feels like a dream

There's no turning back now.

Hearts beat as one.
Chests rise and fall together.
Souls combined
She cries again, knowing.
From it's faded echo it grows.
Louder.
Louder.
Louder.

He knows. Truth. He knows.

Louder.
Louder.

At last she screams
Feels nothing.
Sees, smells, tastes nothing.
Only hearing.
"FOREVER" he whispers, a threat to her ears.

Hesitation.

"Forever" she repeats.

Forever....

Bad...no, Horrible....no, Disastrous Drivers

Took that picture too :-) --->
Normally, I don't get annoyed or ticked off too easily.
Well maybe I do, however, I'm very good at hiding it and not acknowledging it.
But the one thing that can make me go from calm and relaxed Abby to bitchy and pissed Abby is bad drivers.
Now, I may only be 16 and I may have only been driving for a few months, but that doesn't mean I don't know a good driver from a bad one.
I find myself repeatedly saying to myself
''Ugh blinkers were invented for a reason"
"Why don't you just cut right in front of me, ya douche bag"
"Dude, gooooo"
"Uhh helloooo it's my turn''
I even have a key chain that says ''If you're going to ride my ass, at least pull my hair"
Personally I beleive that as soon as you turn 70, you should get your license taken away.
I mean, I've gone to the DMV and I see these old men taking the vision test and they don't get a single thing right and the people are just like ''O.K. well here's your license"
Soooo, an old man can have absolutely no vision in his left eye and get his license yet if anyone rolls a stop sign, they can't pass their drivers test?
BLASPHEMY!
So do me a favor, people.
Drive WELL.
And if you DON'T drive well, just don't drive around me. :-)

Have a nice day :-)

The Greatest Challenge

^ I took that picture :-)
So my therapist has given me an assignment (which I asked for) to write a poem about the greatest challenge a girl/lady/woman has to face today.
Personally, I beleive that the greatest challenge for a woman, well for anyone really, but mostly women, is finding acceptance of themselves. Knowing who they are and what they stand for.
Women always are comparing themselves to the images of ''beauty'' that society creates for them. Models, celebrities, even pornography, give women a false image of beauty. Sure a model's face might be flawless and she has a perfect slender body, but is that really what beautiful is? This is where the quote ''Beauty is in the eye of the beholder'' comes in. Because that statement is so true. What's beautiful to one person may be hideous to another. What really MATTERS is the inner beauty in a person. Yes a lot of love relationships are started with physical attraction and it is a good thing to carry yourself well but if you are a beautiful person on the inside, thats all that should matter.
Now although physical beauty is a main thing women seem to stress and worry about, accepting who you are as a person is a big thing. You need to have your own beleifs and opinions. You shouldn't be afraid to speak your mind or say how you feel. Everyone is different in so many ways. it's just that you need to embrace your differences and be proud of them.
Society and media are the biggest bitches in the world. They brainwash everyone into beleive what's right and what's wrong. What's beautiful and what's ugly. So forget society. People need to think for themselves. People need to beleive in what THEY think is right. Not based on what others might think.

Greatest challenge = acceptance of yourself

First Blog

So I'm not absolutely positive how this blog thing goes or if anyone will get around to actually reading any of mine but, hey everyone this is my first blog. Hooray. School starts in about 5 days. I'll be a junior at Webster High. My goal is to have perfect attendance this year because the last two years I've missed a lot of school due to personal issues. So basically for the rest of the week, my friends and I are cramming as much as we can into it. Yes, I'm in therapy but not because I really need it. I just like to have someone to talk to whenver I want about anything I want. I live mostly with my dad especially during the school year. It's just a lot more stable over here than at my mom's. I have 2 pups, Jenny and Puck, and they are the sweetest puppies in the world. I really only have 3 best friends and a few good friends and the rest of them I just hang out with cuz I kind of have to. Uhhh so basically my blogs are going to be themed, don't worry. This is just kind of a short summary of the things going on in my life at the moment. I just recently started with a personal trainer and I used to do karate but I just stopped sadly. The love life is somewhat pathetic but I enjoy being single so it's not really a big problem. I don't do drugs or anything. I'm going to stop drinking. I mean I'm only 16 so yeah. Well, thats all for my little summary.
Dont give up on me just yet, I might say something interesting soon. :-)
See ya